For thirty-seven years, the Lord whispered a title to my heart. Then, in the summer of 2025, He said: “Now is the time. Write the book.”
This memoir is the story of a life marked by both unimaginable pain and unshakable hope. From Catholic roots in West Virginia, through seasons of abuse, betrayal, psychiatric wards, poverty, and loss — I carried questions, scars, and doubts. Yet in every valley, God met me with His glorious light.
Across fifty chapters, I share the journey of a daughter, a mother, a wife, and a woman who stumbled, fell, and was lifted again and again by the faithfulness of God. You will walk with me through:

• Childhood rejection and the war inside my father’s heart.
• The fierce faith and fire of my mother, even in cancer’s grip.
• Teenage pregnancy, a near-fatal car accident, and the fight to protect my sons.
• Two near-death experiences, NDEs, that pulled back the veil between heaven and earth — moments when I saw the mercy and the love of God in ways that changed me forever.
• Divorce, depression, and the lure of false spiritual paths.
• The fire of revival tents, encounters with Rich Mullins, Jamie Buckingham, Mahesh Chavda, and others.
• The crushing weight of psychiatric treatment — and the greater power of deliverance.
• Seasons of wilderness where I walked away, and the quiet seasons where God carried me home.

Woven through it all is the unrelenting love of the Father — the God who refuses to let His children go, even when they run.
This book is not polished perfection. It is raw, real, and radiant with grace. It is testimony: that the same God who parted seas, who called prodigals home, who heals broken bodies and shattered hearts, is still alive and moving today.
If you have ever felt abandoned, crushed, confused, or unworthy — my story is for you.
If you have ever wondered whether God still heals, still speaks, still rescues — my story is for you.
If you have ever needed to know that light truly shines in the darkness — my story is for you.
I wrote this with tears, with fire, and with faith — to bear witness to the God who is faithful. Always faithful.
📖 This Present Darkness: God’s Glorious Light is more than one woman’s memoir. It is an altar of remembrance, a testimony of His deliverance, and a call to every weary soul:
Stand and see the salvation of your God.